Darkest hope

Sometimes I think I'll can't endure it... T_____________T

I feel so stupid and weak. And totally different to the rest of the world.
Sometimes I think the pain will make me become totally crazy.

I can't endure that and there aren't solution at all

And as much as I try to became stronger, it seems the pain become much and much worse and my heart more hurt.

Why had I born so stupid and weird??

I don't know what to do... My life now is chaos, a chaos wich hurt me too much everytime.

And there aren't nobody who can understand my pain.

Why all of that is happening?

Will I find the answer someday?....

I want to sleep and dream. I want to escape of this.

I can't endure it more

But I can't do nothing

And nobody can help me

Maybe my destiny is to suffer, but it's so hard to try to assimilate it...

Sometimes I think my pain will kill me

Please, God, give me new energy to can endure it, please, don't let me drown in my own tears

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きっとだめじゃないよね。。。でもたぶんそれを思いたいけど、だめだ。。。

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Different and weak heart

I don't know why am I here, if I have never belonger this world
Is my presence here really necesary?... Or it's just a sadic game?...
Anyway, my dearest treasures are here...

I am weak and stupid. I am foreigner in this world. And my freak fight will never end

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I don't need to say nothing.... I am tired, really tired...